death sucks.

My grandpa passed away last night.
There's so much I want to say, and yet I don't feel like saying anything.
His death has affected me much more than I ever imagined that it would.

This morning, I just kept wishing that I could have told him once more how much I love him.
As I was thinking this, I felt a strong impression: "He knows."
And I know that it's true.
I feel really close to my sweet grandpa today.

I am so grateful for my testimony of the gospel.
I've never experienced the death of a loved one before--let me tell you, it sucks. It's hard.
But for the first time, I am excited for the sweet reunion that I know will be waiting for me on the other side.
I can't wait for him to greet me when I cross the veil.
I can't wait to hug you again, Grandpa!

I'm also grateful for these powerful words by Elder Nelson that have brought me such comfort today: "The only way to take sorrow out of death is to take love out of life."
I'm grateful I had such a wonderful grandpa to love.
And a wonderful grandpa who loved me.


  1. So sorry for your lost Kelli. My heart goes out to you and your family.

  2. im sorry kelli. it is always hard to lose people.

  3. I know how you feel, I lose my grandaunt in February too.