telling taylor he's going to be a daddy!

I had decided to take my first pregnancy test Saturday morning, October 3.
It would be six days before my missed period.
But, I just couldn't wait!
I bought an early detector test and crossed my fingers it would work for me.

I didn't realize until we started trying how much I wanted a little baby of our own.
The days leading up to the test were the WORST.
I was looking for any possible symptom, and was constantly googling "earliest pregnancy symptoms"
I swear I googled that like 3 times a day hoping for new answers. hahah
I was desperate for any sign!

Friday night, I could hardly sleep!
I was soooo anxious.
I kept telling myself, "there's no way I can fail the test...I've NEVER failed a test. taking tests is the one thing I'm actually really good at!" hahah

I decided not to tell Taylor I was taking the test.
He thought I was waiting to take one the following tuesday.
After tossing and turning ALL night, I finally woke up at 6:30 in the morning and decided to take the test!
Waiting those 3 minutes...HOLY COW hahahah there's nothing like it.
I went into the bathroom and at first, my heart sunk.
there wasn't a second line.
but when I picked it up, I saw the faintest FAINTEST hint of a line.
like hardly visible.
I instantly got on my phone and started googling, "What does a faint line mean!?"
almost every answer was "if there is ANY hint of a second line, you're pregnant!"
but I still wasn't convinced.
So I ran to wal-mart and bought a digital test.
Taking the second test was even worse.
There was a big part of me that was believing I was pregnant.
But what if the second test said negative!?
what would that mean??

I took the second test (taylor was still asleep), and THOSE three minutes were even worse than the first.
I finally went in and looked--sooo hesitantly.
I like crawled into the bathroom to look. hahah
I did NOT realize how much I wanted this baby until that morning!
when I saw that it said "PREGNANT," I literally slumped against the wall and balled like a little baby.
I was sooo grateful!
It was one of the neatest moments between me, my heavenly father, and my new little baby inside of me!

A couple of weeks before, I had asked Taylor if he wanted to make a "breakfast video."
I told him I just had a cute idea and wanted to make one in our new kitchen.
He agreed, and never had a second thought about it.
LITTLE DID HE KNOW, I had this whole idea planned FOREVER. hahah

I let him sleep for awhile longer, and I went for a run with the little secret that was just mine and baby's.
I couldn't stop smiling and crying during that whole run.
there's really no way to explain that feeling!
^a little picture of the happiest little run of my life!!^

I was DYING to tell taylor but I wanted him to sleep in and enjoy his last few hours of his stress-free life. hahah
so when he woke up, I asked him if he wanted to do that breakfast video.
he agreed (whew!).
making breakfast that morning with him right there, trying to keep such a big secret, was the hardest thing EVER. 

so here is the little video of me telling taylor ;)
p.s. it took him FOREVER to drink the orange juice! 
Every time I drank from my cup, I was saying, "mmmm, babe, this orange juice is soooo good. you should drink some more!!" hahah
more baby stories to come!
(now that I can finally tell them!!)


we're having a baby!

 the news is out!
we are expecting our first little babe!
we could not be more excited!!
we are still a little bit in shock--especially since it feels more real after telling everyone.
we kept it a secret for TOO long--it was the worst!
but we were waiting to tell my family in person when we saw them at thanksgiving!

after four years of marriage, taylor and I started to feel like there was a little baby waiting to join our family.
we actually had a few really cool personal experiences that made everything feel so inspired!

taylor and I decided to start trying a few months ago, because I was convinced that it would take us at least 6 months to get pregnant--which was perfect timing in my book! (I don't know why I thought that though--all of the girls in my family have been little fertile machines)

soooo I was super surprised to find out that we were pregnant on our FIRST try. 
HAHAH the only thing we could really say was "thank the heavens for birth control all of this time!" HA
(more on me finding out I was pregnant later!)
I have been SOOO lucky with symptoms.
I pretty much haven't been sick at all.
EXCEPT for a weird bout monday & tuesday of this week.
(which seems weird since my first trimester is almost over...)

I've only thrown up three times while pregnant, and two of them weren't really because of pregnancy--more my stupidity.
the first time, I went to bed really hungry and thought "whatever..."
UH DUMB haha I learned my lesson really quick.
I woke up that morning soooo hungry, that I couldn't even stomach anything!
I had a piece of toast, and after about two bites, I lost it.
sooo lesson #1: this baby is hungry all of the time--and when the babe is hungry...it needs to eat NOW

the second time was because I am the biggest baby ever and I really really really hate taking pills.
I know its a mental thing, but I really can't handle it.
I can usually only take pills if I'm drinking something thicker than water (chocolate milk, smoothie, etc).
So I've had a good supply of chocolate milk on hand for my prenatals.
wellll the other night, I thought, "I can totally do this with just water!"
swallowed, and then my mind-game caught up to me...and UP came the pill and my dinner.
hahaha but I pretty much throw up anytime I try to take a pill just on water, so that really wasn't pregnant related.
BUT last night was the funniest.
we went out to a birthday dinner at pf changs for one of our best friends, kate!
and right at the end of the dinner I suddenly felt so sick.
haven't felt that ONCE during pregnancy.
so we started leaving the restaurant and I turned to kate and said, "guess what!? we are having a baby!!"
she congratulated me, and then asked me if I had been sick yet, and as soon as she asked that...I turned around and threw up.
my whole yummy dinner. 
right outside the entrance of pf changs.
pretty sure I ruined their business for the rest of the night.
but I was laughing so hard while throwing up...like how ironic is that? two seconds after telling someone I'm pregnant, I'm bent over throwing up. haha
aaaand I may or may not have peed my pants while throwing up.
my bladder just couldn't even handle the stomach muscle spasms.
pregnancy is so beautiful! HAHA

so YES, I've been super lucky with sickness!
other than being really tired (which is finally starting to go away!) and having a really sensitive nose to everyyything, I haven't really had any symptoms.

at 8 weeks, we had our first ultrasound, and we got to hear little baby gilbert's heartbeat.
SO fun.

we seriously are so in love with this little babe already!
It doesn't feel too real yet...but I'm sure as my pants continue to get tighter and my belly continues to get bigger, it will start to feel more real!

last night was the first time that I felt like I actually had a little hint of a belly!
taylor and I were trying to describe what it felt like..."it's not soft like a roll of fat, but it's also not rock hard like a bloated stomach..." ha

tomorrow I will share a fun little video of me telling tayray that he's going to be a daddy!
makes me cry every time. HA

we are so happy this little secret of ours is OUT!
12 weeks along and this babe already has our hearts!
we love you, little baby gilbert!