pregnancy thoughts

sometimes, it is so crazy and bizarre to me that I'm PREGNANT.

I still feel like I'm 16 years old, and yet, I've been married for 4+ years, been teaching for 4 years, have a little girl on the way, and am a homeowner!

Time is so weird.

a few pregnancy updates:

 I was sooo lucky with sickness. I can't thank my stars enough!

but, now that I'm farther away from my first trimester, I'm realizing how much MORE incredible I feel than I did in the first.

I wasn't sick at all in my first trimester, but I don't think I was feeling 100% most days.
But it took feeling 100% again for me to recognize that. haha


^20 week baby bump. really trying hard to make it pop even more. haha like I said, it's still kind of an awkward bump because my top two abs WON'T POP! so it kinda looks like it starts in a weird spot. More in person than in this picture....but, eh. oh well.
alsooo, there is something really ironic and funny to me about a pregnancy selfie in a high school bathroom. hahaha

The only symptoms I've really had while pregnant:
weeks 6-11 I was soooo tired.
like "tired" doesn't even do it justice.
Ha! I could NOT keep my eyes open past like 630pm.
and I had nooo motivation to even work out. It was sooo hard.
 after coming home and making dinner, I was struggling just to make it up the stairs to get to bed.
But I don't think I've ever slept more deeply than in those 5 weeks.
Once I hit the pillow, I was OUT.

I also had a weird food aversion bout for about 2-3 weeks.
It was reallyyyy hard.
Nothing EVER sounded remotely good.
Just the thought of food...ugh.
I wasn't sick or nauseous, but I definitely did NOT want to eat.
the hardest part was that I was getting really weak from the lack of calories and was losing weight for awhile.
The night after Christmas, I was lying in bed and I just started crying.
I missed food so much. and I felt soooo weak.
Luck would have it that just a few days later, I suddenly was able to start eating again.
THANK GOODNESS

and now I love food again just as much as I did before!
and last but not least, I've had some acid-reflux issues...that I'm hoping won't continue to get worse.
other than that, little girl has been so nice to me, and I am so grateful to her for that!

At 20 weeks, I FINALLY felt baby girl move for the first time!
Like I said before, it was seriously one day NADA and the next--she was moving non-stop!
So much so that Taylor felt her the same day that I did!
And now...MAN, she squirms soooo much.
It's still so weird haha, but I love every second!
I also FINALLY popped at 20 weeks.
I literally woke up and had a belly.
Weirdest thing ever.
Pregnancy...it's all just so strange experiencing it all for the first time.
my mind can still not comprehend how I do not have to consciously think about growing a baby...my body just does it.
And that there is actually a little person moving around inside of me!?
CRAZY
what. is. life.

we decided super last minute to go visit my family in california this last weekend!
My little brother was being ordained as an elder, and so we decided to surprise him and show up!
even though it was a reallyyy quick trip, it was so fun!

EXCEPT for the fact that I-80 was CLOSED because of an acid spill.
So to skip 20 MILES of the freeway that was closed, we had to go 160 miles out of the way.
HELLOOOO an extra two hours :(
it was the worst. haha

^marci drew this out for me and sent it to me while she tracked our location hahaha^


and we got to travel on the official LONELIEST ROAD IN AMERICA for two hours!
It was the darkest darkest darkest road.
but luckily, us and everyone's mom was on that road on friday night because of the closed freeway.

here we are...the first mile of the 160 miles out of the way.
soooo superrrr fun.

mama, tay, and I went on a nice brisk six mile jaunt early morning on saturday.

made me miss my sweet california. sooo beautiful.

and of course the whole weekend was spent with my bff marci and my cute niece and nephews.

Taylor and I were lucky enough to steal the boys for a night, because Marci and Tom had plans.

So we took them to toys-r-us, and then to get some ice cream.

taylor is going to be the best little daddio.
those boys just love him!

and here's a 20.5 week baby bump!

I didn't think I had any cravings, until I realized what my snack was the other day:

apple sauce, an apple, and apple juice.

literally. 

hahaha, then I was like...oohhhkay. maybe I'm craving apples?

ALSO, the only real craving I have is coke.

which is sooo funny because I haven't had any carbonated drinks in years.

and I was so shocked when that's what I wanted.

the first few times I had it, I had to mentally prepare myself for the taste of it because it was DISGUSTING!

it was just the burn in my throat that I craved. hahah

but then taylor introduced me to sodalicious (he was so excited that I wanted soda all of the sudden),

and now I'm HOOKED.

please help me.

all I think about is the selfie drink.

we mayyyy or may not make sure we make a little stop at sodalicious tonight...before we catch up on the bachelor!

what a goood tuesday ;)