telling taylor he's going to be a daddy!

I had decided to take my first pregnancy test Saturday morning, October 3.

It would be six days before my missed period.

But, I just couldn't wait!

I bought an early detector test and crossed my fingers it would work for me.

I didn't realize until we started trying how much I wanted a little baby of our own.

The days leading up to the test were the WORST.

I was looking for any possible symptom, and was constantly googling "earliest pregnancy symptoms"

I swear I googled that like 3 times a day hoping for new answers. hahah

I was desperate for any sign!

Friday night, I could hardly sleep!

I was soooo anxious.

I kept telling myself, "there's no way I can fail the test...I've NEVER failed a test. taking tests is the one thing I'm actually really good at!" hahah

I decided not to tell Taylor I was taking the test.
He thought I was waiting to take one the following tuesday.

After tossing and turning ALL night, I finally woke up at 6:30 in the morning and decided to take the test!

Waiting those 3 minutes...HOLY COW hahahah there's nothing like it.

I went into the bathroom and at first, my heart sunk.

there wasn't a second line.

but when I picked it up, I saw the faintest FAINTEST hint of a line.

like hardly visible.

I instantly got on my phone and started googling, "What does a faint line mean!?"

almost every answer was "if there is ANY hint of a second line, you're pregnant!"

but I still wasn't convinced.

So I ran to wal-mart and bought a digital test.

Taking the second test was even worse.

There was a big part of me that was believing I was pregnant.

But what if the second test said negative!?

what would that mean??

I took the second test (taylor was still asleep), and THOSE three minutes were even worse than the first.

I finally went in and looked--sooo hesitantly.
I like crawled into the bathroom to look. hahah

I did NOT realize how much I wanted this baby until that morning!

when I saw that it said "PREGNANT," I literally slumped against the wall and balled like a little baby.

I was sooo grateful!

It was one of the neatest moments between me, my heavenly father, and my new little baby inside of me!

A couple of weeks before, I had asked Taylor if he wanted to make a "breakfast video."

I told him I just had a cute idea and wanted to make one in our new kitchen.

He agreed, and never had a second thought about it.

LITTLE DID HE KNOW, I had this whole idea planned FOREVER. hahah

I let him sleep for awhile longer, and I went for a run with the little secret that was just mine and baby's.

I couldn't stop smiling and crying during that whole run.

there's really no way to explain that feeling!

^a little picture of the happiest little run of my life!!^

I was DYING to tell taylor but I wanted him to sleep in and enjoy his last few hours of his stress-free life. hahah

so when he woke up, I asked him if he wanted to do that breakfast video.

he agreed (whew!).

making breakfast that morning with him right there, trying to keep such a big secret, was the hardest thing EVER. 

so here is the little video of me telling taylor ;)

p.s. it took him FOREVER to drink the orange juice! 

Every time I drank from my cup, I was saying, "mmmm, babe, this orange juice is soooo good. you should drink some more!!" hahah

enjoy!!

more baby stories to come!

(now that I can finally tell them!!)

xoxo